The light and the shadow.

I didn’t leave. I’m still here. It took me a while to write this, but here it is. I’ve been living. And by that I mean, I am living life in its full spectrum. It would be easy to put all the blame on the eclipse and the current Mercury retrograde, but I think I am just experiencing life. For the past few weeks, I’ve been letting myself rest. I deserve it. Being a human being can be so exhausting. I feel like I’ve been playing catch up with life lately; like time is running out (even though it’s not) so I let myself entertain the feeling of drowning that came up. In all honesty, even though I know that the only way out is through, I still dread the through. It’s just uncomfortable. And I know growth lies in the discomfort, but it’s still uncomfortable. So I let myself lie in the mess. I let myself sleep more. I let myself skip the items on my list. I let myself be. I freed myself from my to-do list that started to feel like restrictions. I know I need my lists to keep me grounded (and trust me, they will be back), but for now I am allowing myself to flow freely. This is how I love myself—with no restrictions, with freedom. This is how I show up for myself—with patience, with compassion, with trust. This is how I live and love my life—with flow, with rest, with optimism, with truth. And when it’s time again, I know I can tell every part of myself that I didn’t leave. I’m still here. It took me a while but I have arrived again.

The shadow can block the light but it cannot be put out.

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Recently, I revived my YouTube channel. I am now posting (or at least trying) regularly. I love to document my life. I think I’ll enjoy looking back as time goes on and I find that I want to hide my archive from the internet, then I will.

As I mentioned above, I am now signed with Thesis Agency! I am so excited to be a part of an agency that represents multidisciplinary creatives and multidimensional beings. I am so excited to work with amazing artists and brands.

I hope you had a wonderful Aries season. Personally, it was chaotic for me. But I am hopeful Taurus season will be better. To better days. We just need to ride the waves. We’ll be okay, as always.

I love you. I hope you’re happy. I’m glad you’re alive.

‘Till next time!